Thursday, February 16, 2012

Missy















This Valentine's Day James surprised me with a one pound box of hand-picked chocolates from Cummings. I surprised him with the news that the veterinarian recommended we euthanize the dog.

After all is said and done, I am just really, really sorry.

I am sorry to my children, who love animals. I am sorry to Wesley who doesn't understand where his puppy playmate is; much less why she is gone. I am sorry to McKenna who cried when we told her, and who now tells everyone, "We don't have a dog no more. She went to heaven." I am sorry to JJ, who loved to hold Missy and laughed when she licked his face.

I am sorry to James for buying a cute dog that he fell in love with. He always saw the very best in her, and never gave up on trying to help her be better. I am sorry for the hundreds of dollars that I spent on her. I am sorry that I have caused more emotions for him to repress (probably the reason for the migraines.)

I am sorry for myself. I am sorry that although I prayed and prayed to find the right dog for our family, I didn't get the revelation I was looking for. I am sorry that I am now one of 'those people.' I am sorry that I won't have a dog for a while. Life is hard when you don't have a furry little dog to snuggle up with at the end of the day.

Most of all, I am sorry to Missy. I am sorry that you didn't go to a family who might have compensated for your poor breeding. I am sorry if you were in pain. I am sorry that you were so scared all the time. I am sorry that you spent so much time in your kennel. I am sorry that your life was so short. I'm sorry that I didn't love you more. I tried. Really, I did.

5 comments:

Amy said...

Ugh, I'm so so sorry for you!! (and your whole family of course.) So sorry. :(

Ashlie Dalton said...

oh no, i'm so sorry marianne. i don't know what was wrong with missy but i know it isn't easy to lose a pet. i am sorry for all of you too. *hugs*

Grandma Jane said...

Oh Mar: Im SOOOO sorry. That is the hardest thing in the world. There is a season for EVERYTHING. You will, all of a sudden, find that right little pet. That pet will find YOU... you won't find it. Right now.... isn't the right season. Don't feel guilty about that. You need that time when you don't have any kids in diapers or at home all day long. THEN you will be ready and have time for a little furry pet. That time will come. Its all right that it is NOT that time right now. Love you. Come down for a visit soon! Love, Jane

Grandma Jane said...

Oh Mar: Im SOOOO sorry. That is the hardest thing in the world. There is a season for EVERYTHING. You will, all of a sudden, find that right little pet. That pet will find YOU... you won't find it. Right now.... isn't the right season. Don't feel guilty about that. You need that time when you don't have any kids in diapers or at home all day long. THEN you will be ready and have time for a little furry pet. That time will come. Its all right that it is NOT that time right now. Love you. Come down for a visit soon! Love, Jane

Tiff, Ry, Jayden, and Alex said...

:( So sad... I'm so sorry. I hope things get better soon!!!